Randomness

The rollercoaster hasn’t finished, i’m still kicking and screaming with my hands flaying wildly in the air.

I can’t express how frustrated i must feel right now, to have no car to drive around in feels very much like having no legs to walk around with, obviously that’s a huge exaggeration, but i do feel somewhat stranded if you know what i mean. I will make references to two of my previous posts today. Firstly, i mentioned before that i was looking forward to a more comfortable week ahead this week. Well it turns out that it is not going to be so comfortable after all.

This morning on the way to work, i got into my very first car accident behind the wheel. A driver decided that the lane i was travelling in was far more appealing than waiting in the one he was currently at so he decided to pull out not knowing that i was there. Anyway, details aside, i hit the back of said car, and the car behind smashed up the back of me, leaving me sandwiched between 2 green cars, how lovely.

The moments immediately after the initial impact is very much like playing dodgem cars, that’s what came to mind, dodgem cars. So being the absolute numbskull that i am, i decided that i may be able to use the momemtum that i still had, but without the engine actually being on, and roll on to the other side of a 8 lane intersection. After the lights had turned red. With hundreds of confused on-coming drivers desperately trying to avoid me. Dodgem cars remember? To the couple of uni students who were on their way to, uhhh uni, and helped me push the car clear from danger, thanks for helping this slightly imbalanced being in his time of need.

So anyway, the driver ended up being an apologetic 77 year old man who had admitted being at fault and said that he did not see me. Well oh duh, maybe if you checked your mirrors and your blind spot you would have seen a massive 1 ton metallic black object on 4 wheels and a frightened driver on the inside of it. Maybe then you would have seen me, and maybe then i would not be writing this but instead be enjoying a nice quiet night. Is it too much of an ask for a just little bit of peace?

Having my glove go missing for two hours in the snow was alot more painful than this mornings experience, but it had at least ended on a happy note. Having my car go missing though, which isn’t actually missing but at the repairers, is a test of faith. How will it all end? I wonder what other exciting events are going to transpire in the near future. I can only wait and hope for the best.

This week has been an emotional rollercoaster ride and i’ve been screaming at the operators to let me off, oh please let me off, i think i am about to puke my lunch. I have been getting myself into a bit of trouble lately, not entirely of my own doing though, and i just want things to settle down abit more than they have. I’m glad to see the end of this week, and i look forward to a more comfortable week ahead.

I was away at the snow again for a day tripper on tuesday. My current skill level is up a couple notches since the start of the season which i’m really happy about. But there is something that happened to me while i was there which i will now tell in full detail.

As i was unloading off from a chair lift i used my right hand to push off from the seat and the guy sitting next to me placed his hand on the very same spot, holding down my glove. The result was that my right hand glove came loose and it fell back on to the chair lift which then proceeded back down the mountain. I took note of the chair lift number, quickly strapped in my bindings, tucked my bare naked right hand into my jacket sleeve, and raced down the mountain in hot pursuit hoping that the winds will blow it off the seat and into the snow below. Unfortunately i lost visual contact of chair lift number 5 as it went over the out of bounds area so i went racing down the mountain at top speed hoping that i’ll be able to beat it to the bottom of the loading zone in the hope that my glove will still be sitting on the seat by the time it had reached the bottom.

I had never gone so desperately fast in my entire experience. When i got to the lifts, i told the liftie what had happened and held out my freezing cold hand and he seemed to understand the gesture that i had given him, a missing glove. The liftie and I waited and waited until finally number 5 came around, though my glove was no where to be seen.

I went on riding for the next couple hours in total misery. I felt handi-capped, not being able to do up my bindings with my right hand and pushing myself off the snow wasn’t pleasant either. My hand was numb and in freezing pain for that amount of time and i had no hope of ever improving my day. It all went down hill, literally. At one point, the pain was so unbearable that i had to wear my remaining left glove on my right hand just to stay sane. I suppose i could have hired a glove but that seemed a bit silly since it was already mid afternoon and i couldn’t be bothered going through the trouble of getting down to the village. I was about to give up and call it a day after lunch when i decided to do a few more runs on little buller spur, where my troubles had all began.

After all that, can you imagine the total and utter amazement and greatful thankfulness i felt when i saw what had meet me at the bottom of the run hanging off the gate entrance. My little black glove! Someone had found it and passed it in to the liftie. To the person who found my glove, many thanks go out to you.

This might sound a bit airy, but it felt like a spiritual experience and that is was some sort of wake up message that was sent to me. It got me thinking, how badly i would miss someone if they were no longer around. You really don’t know what you’ve got until it is gone.

So, rather than sit on my bum and generally feel sorry for myself, i’ve decided to abandon my lonely-ever-so-lonely post and go explore the vast outside world. Yes, it is a very courageous thing to do i know, so wish me good luck. No, i’m just gonna hang out with a couple of the guys. She’s out with her friends and won’t be home until late, so i don’t see any reason why i need to be at home (refer to first setence).

In the mean time, it is both hilarious and uncomforting to watch someone cry while eating. Decide for yourself, just don’t post any condescending messages about how insensitive i am to other people’s misery and my lack of empathy. Hey, i have enough misery for myself to go around for two, i think i am suitably qualified to laugh at other people’s made-up misfortunes. Anyway, i don’t really care right now, it’s overcast outside much like my current mood. Grey.

I have been waking up very early on Sunday mornings for the past 2 monthes or so and I gotta say, i’m getting very used to it now. The mornings are glorious and serene, and i’m so glad that i’m soaking up all this lovely sunshine. I can’t think of a better to spend my time than to sit here and bask under the mid-winter sun and just plain veg out. Who am i kidding, i’d rather still be in bed right now.

Nothing much to report, life is as usual. I have been driving around a lot lately, getting from place to place inspecting all those properties which i can’t seem to ever afford. I did come across this ultra cool indie pop rock internet radio station though, it’s called SomaFM. Check it out, i’ve been listening to it a lot at work over the last few days. It has lot’s of new and relatively unknown stuff to entertain your ears with.

When searching for a place to live in, you must first consider the dead.

Things to look out for:
1) Have there been any dead people in this place.
2) Are there any dead people buried across the road from this place.
3) Will i be a dead person from living so close to those mighty big power lines down the road.

I swear, i have come across all these cases whilst inspecting properties in the last couple of days. It’s so morbid thinking about it. I just wanna liveeeeeeeee!

So my first day back at work was easier than i had thought it would be, considering that i’ve being away from work for over a week and all that. The dread i was feeling about work yesterday has vanished too. Turns out that the announcement that was made while i was away only contained mild news. There are going to be a few changes, both bad and good.

Firstly, there will be no more RDO’s. They will be made non-existant. Booooo! Good bye RDO’s, it was good while it lasted. There will also be some changes to our incentive bonus, but i don’t really wanna talk about that right now. Some unofficial changes have also occured at our Melbourne office which i also shouldn’t really be talking about. All i can say is that the dress-code has been relaxed somewhat and i will be allowed to wear denim once again at work. Yay! Let’s hope no one from the Sydney office discovers my blog and reads about this.

On the home front, i called up the landlords today to ask for an extension to the lease. They said they’ll think about it and will let us know in a couple days. Here’s hoping. Also, i inspected a house after work today and it was fantastic, it had everything i wanted and more. But as with most good things there is always a ‘but’. I just found out from Anna that the place is across the road from a cemetry! Doh! Darn it, it was such a purty place too.

I just read something which i was supposed to read last week but didn’t due to some email problems. Anyway, the timing couldn’t be any better, it serves as a very kind reminder that sometimes the adverse can be a blessing in disguise. The story is all over the net but here it is in full if you want to read it.

"Things aren’t always what they seem. Sometimes that is exactly what happens when things don’t turn out the way they should. If you have faith, you just need to trust that every outcome is to your advantage. You might not know it until some time later."

I must try to remember this, always.

I’m feeling pretty down at the moment. There are a few things on my mind that are bugging me, mainly to do with work and housing. We received a ‘Notice to Vacate’ from the landlord earlier this week while i was away at the snow, and i’ve been putting those thoughts on hold while i was trying to have fun. But now that things are going back to normal, i need attend to this semi-urgent matter.

The thing is, i feel like i’m living a relatively comfortable life at the moment and i’m a little apprenhensive about these changes that are about to happen. But oh well, there isn’t much that i can do to stop these things from happening, i might as well ride along with them. Chan was saying to me yesterday that i was thinking very positively about circumstances, and i had felt that too way this whole week up until last night. I hope those positive thoughts return to me soon, if anyone has seen them do send them this way please!

So i was supposed to talk about my adventures at the snow trip, but i just can’t summon any mental energy to do that right now. I may just slip out a couple stories every now and then rather than spilling it all out in one posting, there is just too much that happened, and i have to sift through it all in my head. But i gotta say, it was an awesome experience with lots of laughter, excitement and soreness.